(10/20/25) I get that everyone thinks their own code is bad but oh my god my code is straight up embarrassing sometimes. there are multiple pages on my site where I just have a centered box with a margin that scales with screen size and I do it differently every time. also, I keep whatever naming conventions the tutorial I referenced was using so nothing is standardized. however the good news is that I now fully understand how media query works, so I don't have to constantly reference previous code and try to figure out how it applies to the new thing I wanna do.
(10/20/25) I'm learning that Javascript is like, 30% initializing, 30% applying functions to the relevant elements, and 30% actual things I want it to do. not too hard honestly, at this point it's just about knowing the actual language beyond its structure
(10/10/25) *head in hands*... so firefox doesn't support webkit scrollbars
(10/10/25) I figured out how to genuinely make a custom div box using an SVG file as part of the assets, rather than just setting an image as the background. it's been so long since I've gotten confused by a coding thing to the point of dissociation, but DIDN'T give up and brought myself back by figuring it out. I still have some head pressure but i feel good :3
(10/9/25) honestly, I should've done this a long time ago but I hate change and I'll dig my heels for literally nothing. I had like 6 plugins on chrome specifically to target google search results' bullshit and for duckduckgo it's just in the by default. AND YOU CAN CHANGE THE COUNTRY THAT YOU'RE SEARCHING FROM!!! incredibly helpful for research!!!!!!
(10/9/25) decided I'm sick of it and started transitioning away from google products. one problem is that uhh, I kind of never delete emails, so I have way too much shit to just port it to proton mail right now. I also can't stop using google docs/drive because proton's alternative just isn't that good yet, but fingers crossed that it'll get there eventually
(10/6/25) I think I'm gonna drive myself crazy writing comments for every fuckin drawing I make. the problem is that I want it to have a page on my website still rather than just directing it to the file, but the page feels empty if there's no text. the solution here is probably to make a gallery page that is formatted more like the index page but still theme dependent... which means I have to make an additional Javascript file for the theme switcher that's exclusively for that page :)))
(9/27/25) I originally planned on having all my adoptables/things I've adopted in custom div boxes that change depending on theme and uhhh I think I gotta pull the plug on that idea because it's very scopey. I've been sitting on the final drawing for just the adopted food table for months and even opening the file makes me want to crash :'3 I'll just take the adopted/adoptable pages down while I fix them because otherwise they'll be broken for a while
(9/26/25) I really need to work up the nerve to work on this website again. I generally crash because I either gave myself too much to do at once or I abruptly don't like something major because I changed as a person since the time of making it. like, I realized that the way I write about myself here just isn't really how I view myself in real life. I have an identity alright, but I don't think of myself outside of the terms of my creations much.
(9/8/25) there i go crashin again!!
(9/4/25) nice argument, however I have already blown your back out in my immersive daydream where we are homosexuals in ancient Rome
(9/3/25) also, I'm stable enough to finally have a deep breath through my nose feel good and steady me. it's not the first thing I do when I'm stressed, but once I have a grip on things, I take a few deep breaths to finish calming down. I wish I could gift this kind of stability to people I love.
(9/3/25) I recently learned how to talk through my feelings with myself again, I just have to do it out loud and not frame it like a communication because as I've integrated I have started to have less and less declarative thoughts that are conveyed with words in my head. I have been spending more time outside than ever, because whenever I feel stuck on something, I just step out on the porch and talk.
