(9/4/25) nice argument, however I have already blown your back out in my immersive daydream where we are homosexuals in ancient Rome
(9/3/25) also, I'm stable enough to finally have a deep breath through my nose feel good and steady me. it's not the first thing I do when I'm stressed, but once I have a grip on things, I take a few deep breaths to finish calming down. I wish I could gift this kind of stability to people I love.
(9/3/25) I recently learned how to talk through my feelings with myself again, I just have to do it out loud and not frame it like a communication because as I've integrated I have started to have less and less declarative thoughts that are conveyed with words in my head. I have been spending more time outside than ever, because whenever I feel stuck on something, I just step out on the porch and talk.
(8/29/25) figuring out that I can just talk to myself out loud rather than trying to do internal communciation like I used to was a life saver, oh my fuck. because my anxiety ruminations are so messy and fucked up, it's like impossible to get out of them if I try to just turn them into distinct words in my head, but my actual voice can only be one voice at a time. talking out loud basically forces the tangled mass of thoughts into one steady thought. I also am learning to not give a fuck if someone sees me talking to myself on my morning walk regardless of if I have headphones in to make it look like I'm talking to someone on the phone
(8/27/25) fuck game launchers, all my homies hate game launchers
(8/26/25) there is no revenge sweeter than hitting an abusive person with an over-inflated ego right where it hurts, knowing that I'm able to do it because I have the same kind of brain and chose to look myself in the face instead of continuing the cycle. you don't have any power over me anymore, nice try though ;P
(8/25/25) found a guy on youtube who makes really cool 8 bit covers of songs I like, I have no idea what he looks like but I wanna make out with him sloppy style
