The Things I Left Out

(Last Edited: Jan 2026)

Anyone that writes for a living will tell you that their writing is never actually finished. I always have little things I want to add or remove from my work long after it's done, and I have to just resist it if I want to avoid picking at something for so long that it loses what made it good.

When I put something up on this website, it's done. I rarely ever go into something I've already published here and change something, and when I do, it's either a very minor spelling mistake or something that made me so anxious that I couldn't sleep. I don't add anything new and I'm pretty strict about that. That doesn't stop me from thinking about it all the time, obviously. So, unlike all the other stuff on my writing page, this is an ongoing blog that I'll periodically add more entries to, detailing the stuff I left out of my work and why. I'll also sometimes include stuff about blog posts I wrote and decided not to publish.

Cigarettes and Scratchcards

Because this blog is about welfare and the heightened scrutiny those who receive it face, I opted to not talk about addiction in too much detail. Why? Because I'd have to make the entire thing about the discrimination addicts face leading to a point about abolition being a necessary part of a socialist society if I did.

Our view on addiction is heavily skewed by classism. Caffeine addiction is normalized because caffeine is used by working people to manage the strain of an 8+ hour workday and that benefits capitalism. A homeless man that drinks to cope with his living conditions is an alcoholic, but a middle class woman that verbally abuses her children if she doesn't drink wine through the evening is just a suburban housewife. Going to a couple AA meetings was really eye-opening for me, and not because I realized I had the addict disease that this busted Christian organization wants me to define myself by.

I Am Plural

Somewhere between XXII and XXIII in the timeline of events I wrote about, I saw a talk done by a research psychologist about factitious DID with influence from social media, where he showed clips of real DID influencers as examples of what faking looks like. One of these systems was a fashion Youtuber I liked as a teenager that I later found out was also multiple. Back when he had longer hair, I bet this psychologist looked a lot like Professor Sycamore!

Yeah. So, seeing the guy that diagnosed me saying that a Youtuber I respected was faking because they didn't feel enough shame about their diagnosis really put the final nail in the coffin. It was a big deal, but having it be there in the piece would've taken away the impact of the original second-to-last scene. You don't need to see my belief that medical professionals can't give me what I need affirmed more than it already was through what happened with my therapists. Also, I got super triggered and trauma-dumped while signing a petition about it, not exactly a great way to conclude that story :')

The Comic I Couldn't Stop Thinking About, Psychiatry, and Autism Self-Advocacy (unpublished)

Back when I used Twitter for like, two months, I stumbled upon a comic that misinterpreted a study about autism and it pissed me off like crazy. The main reason I found it annoying was because it revolved around what I'll call autistic moral supremacy. Some autism self-advocates assert that autists have better morals than allistics because they have a strong sense of justice that makes them more consistent about their beliefs, which is an argument that falls apart the second you acknowledge the existence of incels. Fucking toddlers have a strong sense of justice, doesn't mean that they're morally correct when they find something unfair on the basis that it doesn't benefit them specifically.

I thought about the comic for years though, which is weird. Every other example of autistic moral supremacy just blurs together after a certain point, and yet this one stuck with me. Becoming an abolitionist made me eventually realize that's because the study does fucking suck, but not exactly for the reason the comic artist thinks. I wrote a blog about it to get it out of my head once and for all, uncertain if I'd publish it, and then decided... yeah, I'm not gonna publish this. I don't ever want to direct negative attention to a specific person that isn't a public figure, and even if I gesture around the comic without linking it, a link to the study it's about would make it pretty easy to find. At the end of the day, I'm pissed off at the neoliberal state of autism self-advocacy, not this one specific person that I wanted to use as an example for it.