The VIPs (Very Important Personalities)

I have too many alters to talk about on this website, most of which are not as separate as they used to be, but there are a few that are a major part of my life and want to be shown off a little. a lot of our interests and beliefs are shared, so I'm only including things that are distinct about them rather than rewriting a bunch of things from my own about pages.

Frey

Name: Frey Landvik

Pronouns: he/him/his

Age: late twenties

Interests: environmentalism, natural sciences, living fossils (especially horseshoe crabs), cats, collecting crystals, antique stores, the beach, Skyrim, funk and pop music

Misc: genderqueer gay man, furry, system dad, my boyfriend of 8+ years

while hardship influenced a lot of my alters' formations, Frey is the one that I was born with, along with a now-integrated alter named Oske. he was a black cat with purple eyes for a long time, and that impacted how we would act in school, though he did still speak and somewhat understand that his body wasn't exactly like the one he had in his head. as a kid, I viewed Frey as my angry voice, since he was always bitching about something. he once had a rich inner world experience as a pirate, but he doesn't remember much of it now. that drive for adventure is probably the reason he loves Skyrim so much. he plays as a khajiit, of course.

by the time college rolled around, Frey was willing to let go of his identity as a cat, since it was very tied to his connection with Oske, who he had complicated feelings about at the time, and asked me to draw him as a person. we also experienced our first fusion, and it changed my age from permanently fifteen to ageless. we still had a pretty active inner world at this point, so many of our interactions happened there. I realized that I was in love with him when I described what love felt like for me as an aro-spec person to some friends, and then he lightly teased me by doing stuff like not wearing a shirt until I just asked him out. he said yes.

I had to deal with a claims that inner-system relationships stunted my ability to connect with other people from dissociative systems, without them ever really asking what my internal experience was like. I didn't have friends in person for most of college, but it had nothing to do with the fact that Frey and I were dating. in fact, our relationship was what kept me afloat, even when things got really rough, because I knew that no matter what happened, Frey would not abandon me. I wouldn't have learned how to be the boifriend I am now if I did not have someone to grow with like that. I still think fondly of our dates in the city of our college, grabbing little trinkets from the shops downtown, stopping at a crepe place for lunch after every therapy session.

nowadays, instead of having a life in the inner world, Frey just hangs around with me when he's inside and only fronts to either do something he likes or help put together a surprise for another alter's birthday, since he's the only one that can put up a wall of amnesia intentionally. he likes going to nature museums and antique shops with my girlfriend, and when we're on trips with our friends from New Jersey, he's the one that hangs out on the beach with them. kid alters are not super hard to notice when they front, but Frey is the easiest to spot, as his voice is several registers deeper than the rest of us. he likes wearing flowery Hawaiian shirts with the top two buttons undone, walks with a slight swagger, and keeps a collection of trinkets and crystals in two little treasure chests on our bookshelf.

one of the few dissociative system friends that remain in my life told me that some of the dialogue between the main character and his best friend/eventual partner in the first project I showed them reminded them of how Frey and I talk to each other. back when we externalized more of our interactions, we'd always be messing around and playfully bickering. Frey was the voice of reason, and I was the rat bastard that pushed the envelope. now, things are a lot quieter in my head, but he still laughs at my jokes and speaks up when I need guidance. even when he isn't talking, though, I always feel him around, this forever friend by my side. I started feeling that more than ever when Oske and I became the same person. Frey has always been here, and he always will be.

Jasper

Name: Jasper Valentine

Pronouns: he/hym/hys

Age: late twenties

Interests: gentle parenting, literary analysis, edibles, music

Misc: agender, butch lesbian, dad

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Cloud

Name: Cloud Valentine

Pronouns: he/him/his

Age: child

Interests: bunnies, Easter, sweets, Disney/Pixar, Jenna Marbles

Misc: nonbinary, therian

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Prizma

Name: Prizma

Pronouns: ne/nym/nis

Age: mid twenties

Interests: cringecore, arcades, pixel art, abstract art, the 80s

Misc: xenogender

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